The Illusion of An Impossible Dream
Self-discovery, Unknown Purpose, A New Path
In my workstation I wrote:
As I sit quietly at my desk, a question rises from somewhere deep: Who have I become? The days, the months, the years, they’ve blurred into one continuous rush. And still, I find myself searching, restless, chasing after something I can’t quite name.
For so long, I ran toward a distant shimmer, an imagined rainbow I hoped would lead to fulfillment, purpose, recognition. But no matter how far I reached, it remained just beyond my grasp. Beautiful. Fleeting. Always out of reach.
I’ve come to realize now, it was only an illusion. A promise cast by a distant dream. And perhaps that's okay. Because somewhere along the way, something shifted.
I no longer feel drawn to the chase. I feel pulled instead toward a quieter truth: that I can choose a different road, one grounded in what’s real, solid, steady, and mine to walk.
The world taught me that rainbows symbolize hope after storms. But when you spend your life running after them, you miss the ground beneath your feet. You miss the life already unfolding.
So today, I stop chasing.
I turn toward the path right in front of me.
Clear. Real. Achievable.
And for the first time in a long time, I’m not chasing something fleeting.
I’m walking toward something true.
Rainbows remind us that even after the darkest clouds and fiercest storms, beauty still appears. Yet I learned the hard way that chasing them only leads to disappointment, they are breathtaking, but untouchable illusions. That is why I no longer run after fleeting wonders. Instead, I choose to walk the road before me, clear, steady, and real, toward a destination I can truly reach.”.